Since I’m not superstitious in any way, I feel comfortable saying this: I believe that I am experiencing a season of favor in my life. Let’s be clear: the struggle was real and painful in several respects, and my circumstances still have not fully resolved themselves. Yet, even so, I sense favor – not based on my own merits or effort – but rather, anchored in the benevolent and sovereign will of the Lord.
Lest you think I’m saying life is easy, let me quickly disavow you of that notion! My life is not easy, but a familiar rhythm and cadence have fallen into place, and I am deeply enjoying the activities and relationships in my life at this time. Additionally, I am filled with (biblical) optimism and hope, resting in the knowledge that God has a good plan for my life and is bringing it to pass (with my participation and cooperation, of course) even now.
And yet… there is this temptation within me to get ahead of God, to si things on my timetable, and generally accelerate things a bit. This was my struggle for a good portion of today; pondering something that I desire and recognize is good for me, and yet I sense that it is not meant for me at this time (and no, I’m not talking about marriage or anything like that – rather, I’m reflecting on something much more mundane and practical). I believe that the desired thing will eventually come to pass, but not right at this moment.
But I want it now! (Please say hello to my pride, by the way :o) After all, there’s no sense in lying to you all – and to God – about this desire.
And yet, in the midst of it all, this verse came to mind today:
Am I going to mess things by taking matters into my own hands? No way! Why, you may wonder? Simple: I believe what this Bible verse says, and feel like there is a connection between the favor that I am presently enjoying in my life and the patience I’ve had to cultivate as I wait on God’s timing.
So I’m not about to give up this favor for a fleeting and fairly inconsequential thing that I feel sure the Lord may allow me to have later. Even if He doesn’t, though, it’ll still be okay. The important thing is that I did not rush things today – or any day, really.
What about you?
Dear Lord, I confess that I struggled quite a bir today with this thing that I earnestly desire to have now. However, I am going to set it aside, fully trusting that You will work things out in the best way possible according to Your good purposes.
Please forgive me for trying to identify “workaround solutions” that I feebly presented to You – You clearly were not impressed. 🙂 So I commit to leaving the matter entirely in Your hands, rather than letting my emotions get the better of me and unwisely guide my thinking and decision-making process. In Your name I pray, Amen.
PS – My last post on Daily Thankful will take place on Sunday, November 26 – exactly one year to the date when I began this blog. Lord willing, on Monday, November 27, I will issue my first post on Daily Hopeful (I will share the new blog’s URL well before then). I appreciate your support and understanding!